Tuesday, January 26

Flam Glam Femme

Was on my way home after a night out when I saw one of my little sister's guy friends having a "date" at some sidestreet bakery with his, I guess, boyfriend. It was already five in the morning.

I jokingly pointed at him, gave him a knowing smile, and mouthed that I'd tell my sister about this little trick he was pulling.

"Nakita ko si Eric may ka-date kaninang madaling araw."

"Oo nga, nakita ka rin daw niya. Sabi, 'Iyong kuya mo, baklang-bakla na.'"

Ah, ok...

Don't get me wrong. I wasn't caught off guard. We're very open about "me" at home and I'm quite lucky because I never had the proverbial closet to begin with. My parents didn't need a memo. No coming out stories. No big reveals. I guess they already figured out that growing up, I was to become... flam, glam, femme!

What got me thinking was the comparative drift in Eric's note: "Baklang-bakla NA." Does that mean I wasn't that bakla before? Am I getting worse? Or perhaps just getting better?

Yet in spite of my relative openness, there are some who still don't get it. One time after reporting in class, a girl friend approached me and said, "Alam mo Darc hindi ka naman halata eh."

Ah, ok...

I'm being presumptuous but, for real, I felt a tinge of sadness, a hint of pleading as she told me that. It must be true, there aren't a lot of straight guys left. The good ones are gay. And because of that lack of choices, we are made to suffer...

Please, let us be!
I don't want a girl!
I wanna be a girl!
Can we just be friends? :)

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"Nakita ko si Eric may ka-date kaninang madaling araw."

"Oo nga, nakita ka rin daw niya. Sabi, 'Iyong kuya mo, baklang-bakla na.' Tapos biglang hiningi number mo. Sabi ko na lang magagalit ka."

Ah ok...

22 comments:

  1. Hahaha... Pareho tayo. I didn't have to suffer the drama of coming out. Everyone knows and if they don't I tell them out right! Dapat wear your colors proud - PINK! Hahaha...

    Palink ha! I like this blog...

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  2. uy thanks brew. although sa akin naman, if they don't ask, i don't tell. dapat non-issue siya or parang matter of fact lang. hehe :)

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  3. tambling ako sa "baklang bakla na". Also got me confused if it should be a good thing or a bad thing.

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  4. Johnny - kakaConfuse nga talaga... Parang may negative connotation yun eh. Peo in Darc's case siguro it's something positive kasi the guy asked for his number after eh. Jijiji...

    Thanks Darc for visiting me...

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  5. ang masasabi ko lang...tambling akey!:D

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  6. kung ako sabihang "baklang bakla ka na.." sasabihin ko, "what do you expect? bakla ako eh... there's nowhere else to go but to level up. Hahaha...

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  7. Natawa naman ako sa "Baklang-bakla na." Naaalala ko tuloy noon when we spotted some very young (around 11 or 12) and obviously nancy boys on the street, and my female friend said "Ay ano ba yun! Ang babata pa, mga baklita na!" I had to chuckle and reply "Ganyan talaga, parang bulaklak lang, nagsisimula nang mamukadkad."

    Made me think of a line from another conversation about a once-shy and retiring gay boy acquaintance who had blossomed into a full-fledged, fierce and fabulous flim, flam, femme : "Hay, si ***. ANg dating fagette (short for baklang bagets), ngayon, ganap na bakla na."

    Good times.

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  8. as much as possible i prefer not be boxed in by labels =)

    "I don't want a girl!
    I wanna be a girl!" ---> lols

    and ang aga mong umuwi. 5 am! =D

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  9. ermm. di ko alam ang sasabihin ko. =)

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  10. i think as a society, we're confused na rin.

    "Tapos biglang hiningi number mo. Sabi ko na lang magagalit ka."

    kahit yung mga bading, nalilito kung ano ba dapat gagawin. ewan ko ba. andaming confusion. haha

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  11. una sa lahat, salamat brew for moderating my comments section. bwahaha ;P

    @rudeboy: the vocabulary lesson will be very useful. i think i'll be using faguette for a very long time. hehe

    @lee: 5am ako umuwi?

    @engel: paano ba iyan, so wala na talagang coffee date? hehe

    @nyl: i support anarchy. woohoo! :)

    paano ba iyan johnny and erick, hindi na ako mag-rereply bilang nakasagot na si brew. lol ;P

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  12. "Tapos biglang hiningi number mo. Sabi ko na lang magagalit ka."

    ganda mo teh! gandang di nakakaumay. hahaha.

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  13. yun talaga..BAKLANG-BAKLA..
    sasagutin ko lang ng ANEZ? ANECHIWA? AKEZ BECKYDOODLES TO THE HIGHEST LEVELACIOUS?!? DI AH!!!

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  14. i agree sa sinabi mong "if they don't ask, i don't answer." hindi naman natin sila tinatanong kung lalake ba sila or babae diba? tska ndi pa ba obvious!? :)

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  15. type ka ni lil sis' guy friend. lol

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  16. Hehehe, naku, ako po ay nakakarelate dito.. well, for me i never leave with other peoples' expectation...

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  17. @beki: nahiya naman ako. haha

    @paci: lol. oo, hindi nga.

    @chichirya: cradle snatcher pa ako tuloy :)

    @tim: yep, just live your life. ehey ehey yeah. rihanna! :P

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  18. @goddess: my world is getting smaller. i know you know me - gossip girl. secret natin 'to ha. walang alam na nag-bblog ako. for that, magpapadala ako ng food sa office niyo... baka sa Monday. lol

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  19. hahaha... ako na daw ba sumagot. sowee naman. :)

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  20. haaay naku darc. hindi mo pa rin binibigay yung number mo. hahaha. seryoso ako. HAHAHA

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  21. there is really something with the word BAKLA na so derogatory..

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