Back in college, some of my friends used to talk about a particular professor who often cried in class. As she talked about how our country has been governed over the years and how she has participated in many government fact-finding commissions with their recommendations remaining as just that - recommendations - she'd stop for a second or two and continue with her lecture, teary-eyed and frustrated.
Last night, I knew how she felt.
Watching the news and seeing how difficult it was for our officials to evacuate our overseas workers from Libya, I felt that same frustration. How bureaucratic can you get when there's imminent danger to lives? And the gravity of the Filipino diaspora suddenly dawned on me, of how we need to leave our families and loved ones just so we could provide them with a better, more financially secure life. That's when I started to cry.
The previous day, I sat in a meeting with one of our public partners and she lamented the lack of direction they've been receiving thus far. Apparently, the "matuwid na daan" was just that: matuwid albeit with nowhere to go. And it doesn't exactly help when your President promised to be different from previous administrations, that he'd be responsive and would listen to us, his "boss," then buys himself a Porsche and test-drives it through the SCTEX in the wee hours of the night. How insensitive can you get? And how selective this "matuwid" but directionless "na daan" is is becoming more apparent as this administration fumbles through one gaffe to another.
Depth of character.
Depth of thinking.
They say that waiting is a sacrament and that the fruits of change will blossom in a year or two. But then how could there be fruits when to this date, no seeds have been sown? Romanticizing this whole business of a "matuwid na daan" has been the biggest frustration. And when the hard realities of incompetence knocks at the very door of lives, it is high time to re-examine the leadership we've been getting.
Amidst the EDSA songs playing in the background as I write this, one can only hope... and then act some more.